The Whole Spectacle of the End of the Semester

It's the end of the semester. Yeaaaay..

The ending of this semester gives me an odd mixed feeling. I feel relieved but also incredulous at the same time. I mean.. do I really get through the whole spectacle unharmed? well.. maybe just a little, at least emotionally.

There are so many things that I'd like to write, but somehow things are really complicated and I don't think I will be able to untangle everything right now. I mean.. being an English teacher itself is very challenging. So I spent a lot of energy to survive the whole semester. Not to mention my private life that has gone to an unexpected extend. Does that even make any sense?

A lot of things happened in the past 2 months. And I still couldn't believe myself that things are going this way. I finished my report, the events at school, and I met someone that surprisingly seems pretty much compatible with me in a way or two. Things are escalated quickly. And I don't know how it will end, although I hope somehow it will have a happy ending.

But again, I've been practicing self control for the past 2 years. I won't let myself feeling too much or building hope too much before I'm sure that it is safe for me to do so. Before I'm sure that the other party is reciprocating, in my own term. Is it selfish? For someone that had been hurt badly, I surely hope it is not. Protecting your heart from another wound is necessary. Hopefully the other party understands and patients enough to deal with all of the baggage that I bring.

It's the end of the semester, and it's almost the end of the year. I am grateful.

What affect you most in life?

It's amazing, how a certain feeling or a certain memory could affect your whole preferences in life.

Just last year, my playlist was full of desperate and heartbreak songs. Now it's full of desperate but hopeful songs. Hahahaha.

Point is, people change. We all are. No matter how small, the change will happen, for better or worse. Me? I think I changed a little bit for both side.

This one particular song that I currently very fond of is Beautiful Things by Tori Kelly. I adore her since years ago. But never really pay attention to her other songs that is not quite mainstream popular. But somehow I stumbled upon this one on Youtube and still can't get it out of my head.

The music is great, just the sound of Tori singing with an acoustic guitar (Yes, she is that talented). The melody sounds like a nice lullaby without Tori trying too hard to show her singing talent. If you know what I mean. She's not performing, she's expressing her feelings.

Just like the tittle, the lyric is beautiful. No promises made, no pressure about it, just about someone's feeling towards a particular person. Just an adequate mount of fear, anxiety and hope which is very much acceptable for most human. And it's rather comforting, not suffocating at all but feels liberating instead.

Since I used to be very emotional and very bad at processing feelings, the song give me this peaceful and content vibe that I rarely got before.

I'd been afraid
I'd been away too long
Every city whispering your name

Won't ask you to wait
But darling when I get home
I'm hoping that you might still feel the same

If you go, I think I'd understand
It's not that easy holding my hand
But you should know, that I miss you all the time
And I wish that I could tell you that we'll be alright
But I can't be where you are tonight

I only dream beautiful things about you
So waking up always seems to hurt
And I hate goodbyes

But I will try to make them work
If you choose to break my heart when I return
If you go, I think I'd understand
It's not that easy holding my hand
But you should know, that I miss you all the time

I wonder..

It was never felt this way before.

I wonder.

All the feelings that I've ever known before. Are they real?
It was so different. There is no such thing as odd feeling that used to hit me hard like before.
Was it the person that completely different? Was it my heart that already grow beyond its limit?

I wonder..

I can't even remember when it started. The feeling is growing.. expanding..

I wonder, will I ever survive?

I don't know where this story lead. All I know is that I'm grateful to be able to feel joy again. From a simple joke that could entirely shake my core. For a genuine smile that brings me warm. For a simple touch that makes me long for time to stop. For certain moment that takes my breath away.

And for days full of hope..

I wonder..

Will it have a happy ending after all?

The Best Joke in My life

So, this is my real life story. It happened when I was a freshman in this chemical analyst high school in Bogor. We had this Basic Chemist Lab Subject. We learn in an actual lab that designed to give us real life experience of how a lab should be. We were stationed in a long table that has drawers and shelf for lab equipment and there is a chair for us to sit.

So one day we practiced using volumetric pipette. It's a pipette that has really high accuracy. We need to make sure that the liquid we sucked to the pipette reach the line to get the high accuracy. We did it while standing, but since it was tiring, we decided to sit.

My teacher came through the door, she saw some children sit and she was like, "No one sit. Do it while standing. You need to handle the pipette straight.", so we stand.

She went out again. Later she came again and she was mad, "What did I told you, kids! Do it while standing. You are practicing."

And we just dumbfounded. We were looking to our left and right to see who's sitting now? Cause we couldn't really see the children who sit in the other table since there are racks of bottle and such, we could only see their upper body.

And my teacher gets angrier.

"What are you.. Yes.. yes.. you, black veil.. didn't I tell you to stand up. Don't look around like an innocent. I'm speaking to you."

The one with the black veil is me. I automatically look into my feet, just to make sure that I'm actually standing up. The whole class broke down into hysterical laugh. Until my partner next to me said.. "Bu Iceu, you are so mean. SHE IS STANDING."

And the class broke into another hysterical laugh because Bu Iceu's face turned red and she goes, "Oh my God, I'm sorry.. I really am sorry.. "

At least I made the whole class had a good laugh twice by doing nothing that day. hahaha

Just a Regular Dose of My Almost Midnight Whine

Apparently, writing is not as easy as I think it is. Duh.

I mean, last time I wrote was November last year. Now it's September, so it means I ignored the blog for like, what, 10 months? (Practically another year, but let's not go that far).

I'm seriously thinking of writing a novel. Honestly I've been reading some books lately. Mostly Urban Fantasy or just Fantasy. They are really fun to read by the way. I mean I could spend my weekend doing nothing except glued to my phone cause some ebooks that I couldn't stop to read. Every time I get to read a good book, I always feel excited. Like I really am a part of that story, or maybe just being a watcher. And it doesn't matter. I mean I really like engaging stories. Where I could be awed, sad, happy, etc by a mere book.

A few months back, I really into Magic Bites series by Ilona Andrews. I really love that series. there are 10 of them, but I seriously fond of the first four. The rest, well I could manage to finish them anyway. But honestly I'm not as excited as when I read the first four book. But yea, those are good books. The main character is a bad ass woman full with incredible knowledge, amazing heritage, surrounding with good friends and a great deal sense of humor. I mostly stick to the book for that last treat.

Maybe I should start by writing reviews rather than making an actual story. Cause it's hard. Like soooo hard to start writing a story. What am I gonna write anyway? see? my brain is just blank when it comes to brand new ideas to create something. But put your dreams as high as the sky right? 

Alright, then. Deal. I'll start by writing reviews first. But not today, obviously. It's sunday night, I need to get my beauty sleep and be ready for all the obligations I need to fulfill at my workplace. I'll tell you more about that later. (always this later word. I am so lazy I can't help it).

Bye!

I'm Back! (After 6 years of full hibernation)

Wow. First thing that came to my mind when I found out that I actually HAVE a blog is WOW. It felt so good that I can't help but re-read all the posts that I've made so far. It was nice of me years ago. I mean how long had it been? Blogger.com said that I created this in April 2010 and I made some posts until 2012. So ladies and gentleman, it is true that my blog doesn't have that much, but she's 8 years old now (if I decided to give it a gender, it will absolutely be a she. Not for the sake of anything, just so we can be bestfriend, I guess, you know this blog and I.. alright let's move on!).

Can't say that I'm proud with my "writtings" back then. Cause yes of course, they're messy with too many grammatical errors, typos, etc. My friend Hawky would be very happy scolding me with this. I'll tell you more about him later. But long story made short, he's like a grammar guru or something for me. Which means I come straight to him EVERYTIME I have difficulties with English. Like, everytime. Because he's that good, or simply because he's the one who always available. Errr. Nevermind.

The funny part is, it was merely days ago that I talked to him and said that I wanted to created a blog. Didn't realize that I already have one. Perfect, right? It's an abandoned one, the blog that is, but still perfect nevertheless. And if any of you wonder why now? My answer would be, why not?

I like writting. Honestly. Since I was in elementary I've been in love with writtings. It was all started with a comic that belongs to my cousin, then a really sad book called Jamin and Johan. (Prolly will tell you more about it LATER- how many times have I typed the word later now? Ugh..)

Well, it's 2.38 am. I'm typing this entry at my phone because I'm so excited to finally start writting again. I really hope that I could maintain this blog now with all thoughts that I'd like to share. *fingercrossed

Sooo.. this shall be my official revival day of this blog (if it's even a thing, the revival.. what a big fuss for such trivial stuff.. lol). See you on the next post!!

David Foster Live in Concert 2012

I was so glad to be a part of David Foster Live in Concert 2012 at MEIS Ancol Jakarta last friday, November 9. It was very fun and we were having a great time together.

It was five of us went to the concert : our big sister Johana, Sist Linda, Ka Igor, Febri and I. Those three are my announcer fellas (Sist Johana, Ka igor and Febri, although Febri is still on his training, I assume he's going to be there soon.. *wink ) and sist Linda from marketing. We drove from Bogor approximately at 6.20 pm and just arrived around 8.

It was crowded, many people watched the concert from a very wide range of age. I saw children, young adults, adults and very adults people watched. :D Mostly they're watching with their family.

The concert started at 9 pm. David Foster opened the concert cheerfully. With the formal suit, he looked very professional. He did give intro to the audience telling us how he was so happy to be in Indonesia for the fourth time. And so on and so on. Then he welcomed Hayley Westenra as the opening singer. She looked all beautiful. Her make up, her hair, her dress and her voice was stunning. Absolutely gorgeous. She sang two songs.

I don't even know what songs she sang, but they were beautifully sang. :D

Then one by one, David introduced us to his friends who performed that night. From a Puerto Rican singer named Anthony or is it Mario? I don't quite remember.. Then there was Dirty Loops, a Swedish indie record band. They're pretty cool, there are three of them, I personally had a slight crush to the drummer. He's cute. :P And then Paul Young, Kenny "BabyFace" Edmonds, with his sexy RnB voice, and finally the most sensational, the fire on that night, The one and only Chaka Kan!

And Raisa, the Indonesian soloist sang Whitney Houston's I Have Nothing. It was quite surprising that Raisa sang there. Even David said he only met Raisa two days ago. I think it must be at the charity show. He commented that Raisa has a soft beautiful voice. But she looked very nervous at first, even she said she needed the audience to cheer her up since she's so nervous. But she sang beautifully eventhough I heard some fals note. Well, Raisa's a human too right??

What I really like from the show was that David apparently has a very good sense of humor. :D

Seriously. He made some clever jokes with his friends who performed that night. And the most funny thing is the Pri Project. It was this old guy named Priyono at the front seat. Earlier on the show David came to him and asked why Pri has such a grim expression, like he didn't enjoy the show at all. Then David said to the audience it was his job, their job to made Pri happy that night.

Along the show, David hold his words, he put so much effort to made Pri happy. Even Babyface and Chaka Khan said they would sing to entertain Pri. :D Oh Snap! David challenge  Babyface to created a song right there at that moment, to entertain P{ri/  with three keywords from the audience. It was rainbow, Pri and.. I didn't remember the last word. But he DID it! I don't know whether it was already set up or not, but if it wasn't set up, Babyface did a great job! babyface has a good sense of humor too, he swiped David's grand piano everytime he finished a song.. :D
 

And.. CHaka Khan...!! She was unbelievable! She brought a chinese fan. a black big one. She kept fanning her neck when she sang. And it was funny and awesome. I mean she could manage her voice while she was doing that. And she sang perfectly, beautifully. Like I said, unbelievable.

Back to David again. It was obvious that David has many experiences dealing with audience. He did interact very well with the audience. He praised the audience so much. He said Indonesian people were smart. He tested us with some of his songs and we were all could follow.. we literally beat him.. :D then he invited anyone who really could sing to performed in front of him. All sang beautifully. But the weird thing was mostly of them were actually had met him before. I don't know whether it was already set up or not. *shrug

Over all.. It was very entertaining. I'm happy we were having a good time together.. :))